Dear Diary, 

there's so much going on in my head, so I'm gonna write this diary to try to clear my head and organize my thoughts (the original unfinished version got deleted ಥ_ಥ so I'm trying to replicate it the best I can). 

To start off, I haven't posted content on insta in a while, so I'm gonna get started again with that tomorrow cus I have a free day. I'm gonna post a reel and start posting more carousel content so I look more professional and so my page looks cleaner. I'm gonna list out all of my reel ideas and start filming for all of them as well as any b rolls that could help >:).

I also rlly need to start making content on youtube so I can actually make money off of what I enjoy doing the most, so I took a hot minute trying to figure out how to set up and transfer my camcorder content onto my laptop (that's right guys we're REALLY going retro). I'm just glad that that's over cus I was STRESSED. I'm thinking of starting off with short lil no talking vlogs based on the diary entries I write here, that way it builds off of my neocities content but in a way that I enjoy. Stay tuned for that y'all ¢‿¢

Also, I've been having conflicting feelings about that ryan guy I mentioned in my previous blog. I heard he's so sweet and kind, but hes also gonna be a finance bro in college... but it's quantitative finance so idk... but he also might be dating a girl that's so much cooler than me??? idk they went as prom dates and are rlly close, but I can't find any more proof of them being together it's just something my friend suggested could be a possible situation rn. But I also don't know if I truly like him or not cus he seems so different from me and he's also lowk just like any other white guy out there. He likes cars, he's the school track star, he's going into finance, he likes house music (the one you hear in clubs), AND... he's also in a friend group that I'm iffy about. Not that I hate anyone in the group, but I fear they may not like me. for context, I had a crush on another guy in the same group (he transferred to a different school for the better,) and me being a stupid freshman, I TOLD EVERYONE I SAW ABOUT IT, AND I OPENLY STALKED HIM ON INSTA AND IRL (in school only) TOO. (**I am not condoning this behavior at all. I didn't know any better, and I have moved on from that era of my life. Please don't do this to anyone for the love of God it invades people's privacies please have some self control for the sake of others). 

Anywayyssssss....

(the day has ended at this point)

I needed to keep drawing cus I promised myself that I would but I haven't, so I kept drawing that one girl on pinterest, and I started drawing cubes again (I have a long way to go ＼(￣O￣)) but fuck it we ball I'm gonna become the best digital artist out there trust. 

I also rlly need to recode my blog layout cus right now, my text section is on the left which is rlly bad in terms of graphic design, so I'm trying to figure out a way I can make it work while still keeping all the fun parts (like music and status bar) on my blog layout. Maybe I'll do it today, maybe not cus it's already 11:30pm, but it's def on my to do list. 

I also gotta import all my footage for this blog >:) I'm so excited and can't wait to make my first blog (be on the lookout for a new channel and new video). 

Also I did my makeup for school for the first time in a while and IT LOOKED SO ADORABLE AT FIRST WITH MY HAIR BUT THE SCHOOL AIR RUINED IT ALL ಠ益ಠ

gn yall.